ALHAMDULILLAH

terlalu banyak kata,bertinta rasa,
akhir ditengah penuh derita,
singgah menyapa,
bukan berdusta,hilang bersama,
tiada gunanya,
alangkah derita diganti bahagia,
alangkah pahitnya,tersemai jua manisnya,
apa yang terkubur,diikrar bersama,
akan diturut satu di jiwa,
mungkin waktu dan masa,
berputar hendaknya,
yang kala di atas,
mungkin jatuh jua ke riba..
entah mengapa,entah bisa binasa..
dicaci dimaki,di herdik bak si hina,
namun,tika saat berganti..
teguh berdiri menyuara rasa,
apakan daya,masa menyiksa..
yang dekat makin dijauhkan.
yang jauh,meniti perpisahan..
saban menanti dari hari ke hari,
tingkah membeku,tulang kata makin terkedu..
hanya pautan kenangan yang bisa menyatu,
hanya memori bisa tercipta,
nak ku lari kejar yang menyepi,
nak ku jabat tangan yang terlepas,
nak ku genggam suatu ikatan.
apakan daya,
aku insan hina,insan yang tandus dek agama,
tiada ku berpaksi meminta dari-NYA,
yang bisa ku tangis,
yang bisa ku tunduk...menyembah bumi tersadai membuku..
ASTAGHFIRULLAHALAZIM,
apakah yang ku cari,
apakah yang sebenarnya..
yang bersatu tersingkap barisan kata,
tandus meneka tiada jawabnya..
biar semua jadi biasa,
kerna DIA tahu semuanya...
alhamdulillah..
alhamdulillah................

~waktu itu~

25/11/2009
4.30 p.m
huhu...
tarikh dan waktu tu ak berada di tempat dimana,
ramai manusia dan hamba ALLAH yang mengamati sebuah pantai..
erm...
actually...waktu tu,
maksud ak..sebelum tu,kelas writing kami PTSL 2 c cancel..
and,right that particular moment...
ak dgn kaza decide nk balik bilik,
coz petang nk men basketball..
tapi..rasa mcm awal sgt...
so,he ask me where to go...
ak cakap masjid tanah...
dengan berbekalkan honda EX 5 dy tu...
n beban ak di belakang..(hahhahaa)
dy speed up to 100 then smpai la kami ke Pengkalan Balak...
hahahaha...
best sgt waktu tu..
ada brand ke tidak...ak dah takde fulus time tue..
dua2 lapau...cian tak???(seyes lapau)
then g la order kuih udang kt budak gurl sorg nie...
tapi,dy kata takde...
so fine la...
kaza mengidam pisang goreng plak..
jadi ak suarakan...


ehem2..


ak: makcik..bg pisang goreng 2 ringgit(time nie la si kaza menyibuk perbetulkan tatabahasa ak)


kaza :oit..gorng pisang la..


ak: pape je...a'ah mkcik..2 ringgit..kmi duk depan sne tue k..terima kasih..


kaza&ak: hahahahahahahaha


(tetibe,terasa gegarannya...just imagine...dahla rmai org,mk cik tu dtg dengan ayunya dan memekik)


makcik: eh..nak,kau nak kuih udang ke gorng pisang???yg mne nie..


kaza: ????


ak: la,tadi anak kecik mk cik kata takde,jadi kmi order la pisang goreng...


(nada merdu mk cik memekik)


makcik: la..yg korang g tnya dy buat ape...dy bukan tau ape pun...isyh...


ak: owh,ye ka...maafla...ingatkan memang dah habis..


kaza: fiq..ok la...


ak: takpe la mk cik...kmi amik je kuih udang nie..thank u


makcik: haha(ketawa mengilai.hbis sume org tengok)..ye la nak...


ak n kaza waktu time tu,memang ketawa habis...malu kot...psal kuih,sume orang tengok..hahaha..
mak cik2..kenapa tak jadi polis ke,cikgu ka...guru vokal ka..
hahahaha


then,kami pun makan la..sepinggan.n seyesly kaza memang lapar..
ak pun,dengan takde duit takkan nak demand...ak mkn cikit je then bg kt dy..
yumyum...
makan2..then g byar....
sume nya 3.80...hahahaha..perut lapar g nie...
hehe..
then..kmi g la kt tepi pantai..
dibuai angin laut dan kentot si mamat nie..(hahahahahhaa)
kmi berdua pun mule berkarya di atas pasir...
er...ak jauh di sana,yg dy jauh di situ..
entah ape yg dibuat...
rupa2nya....
dy tulis something atas pasir(dahla amik kayu ak)hahaha

haha..artistik tak(nie candid,ak yg tangkap,smart tak gmbr nie..huhu)




take note(my dear fren kaza has taken by a lovely gurl eiycha)hope u guys hapi za


so basically...itu lah yg diukir si kaza...
hahaha...bnyk kali wat kot...
kejap2 ombak...hahahaha
but at last jadi la gak..
er..takkan dy je yg wat..ak pun de gak..hehehe





haha(Sempat lg ak..nak harap kaza snap,isyh..bz je dy..self-snap nmenya)



(im not taken yet..but in progress with d only one lovely fitrah noor-fit)huhu


n dis carving thingy make me feel something..
ak pun...ukir la atas pasir nie smbil kaza texting eiycha di sebelah ak...
erm..n yet i snap d pix..


erm(Bff,lots of meaning...kaza...kaza..ak pggil dy wat tak tau je..hahahahhaah)
oit...kaza...
dy bz bapak la texting...berangan ape la tu...
amik kayu ak plak tue...hahaha




pastu.kami pun terus la ketawa2.kaza kena makan pasir..
hahaha..ak kn suke membuli..hahaha..
dah la kasut dy koyak...hahahha...cian my bro..
and...dis r one of the pix kmi sebelum balik..tak edit...
natural face n candid
jujur n ikhlas..takde pose2
huh




hahaha(fiq n kaza)


then,
kami pun habis2 mengukir n balik la..
msa tue,perut lapa..
duit kureng..
hahahaha..frustnye..berangan mkn besar..
za...takde brandla...hahahhaha
balik la kami pun..n smpai around 6 something...
then,g men badminton...
smpai maghrib...blik mandi...
n mamam...keje2...edit3...tdo...
haha..
esoknye takde kelas,..
rezeki btol la...amin..hahahaha


p/s:thanks kaza...i dedicated this to u dude..thanks a lot..t ak blnja plak k..ade brand punyelah...hahahaha...


kini,dulu dan selamanya
semuanya ak abadikan dalam kenangan terindah selama2nya...
thanks my dear fren,muhammad kazarrudin b kamarrudin..
may GOD bless u bro..



~dear friend~

what should i say..


what should i do...


im begging u...hey dude...im here...yet im not ur besties..


im fine with that...common...


talk to me..i know you are not okay my dear friend...


ples...say something...


don't hurt yourself...


i can feel it...the very moment you talk to me...


you are not ok...


take care dear fren...


ill be your fren 4 ever...


yes...you can count on me...


life is not easy dude....common...not this time...


smile...


you might hurt me once,
but i know the truth of you,
you are not what you are
your truthfully.

time changes everything

im not posting anything now..
ill keep in my mind..
one day...
somewhere or maybe somehow...
insyallah..
ill post it..
for this particular moment,
i've made up my mind..
and yet..this time..
im not as usual..
im getting mean to myself..
does anyone mad at me.
just utter it..
ill take it sincerely..
ive no doubt with what ive been through now..
its all fate..
im following d flow...
OH GOD..
thanks 4 what I have now..
insyallah...i won't spoilt it...
insyallah....im not..
anything but not me,.,
im getting stucked with a word..
verbally stucked...
i cant express it now..
hope the time yet to come...
insyallah...
 


im sorry...

to the  one n only you....

im sorry....
im so so sorry..
sorry..............
im sorry......
i do amid it..
sorry..
sorry...
sorry....
sorry...
sorry....
sorry.....sory....sorry...im so sorry...sorry...
sorry......
it wont happened again....
im sorry...


~self-titled~

erm...
jam tepat pukul 3.37 a.m...
ak masih x tdo..bertemankn coursemate akmamat celup A.D
erm...
entahala..
kenapa susah sgt ak nak tdo awal hari ni...(walaupun lmbt selalu)
tapi,deep inside...ak rase tak sedap ati..
ak rse hapi,tapi kuat je rse tak hapi..
tak seimbang nye..
dahla result kuar...
mamat dua org ni kejutkan ak...basah and sengal...
hai..
dyorg hebat jew..
ak nie...habuk pun takda..
erm...sedihnye...takutnye...
nex sem..huh...isnin start dah kelas..
wut a short time...
hurm...ape ak nk ckp pun tak taulah..
just wanna say hye sem 2..
daa...sem 1...
huh..i hope..i will give my very best 4 next sem..
nak tak nak..kene jugak...
seyesly...erm..
insyallah la..
so...that's it..
tu je la ak nk post aneff...
hahaha...
that is my feeling rite now...
current one..
nah..tinggalkan kenangan memori satu sem yg lepas..
agak sayu je...
tgok la kami...hapi...sedey...bnci,marah,ala...lengkaplah semua tu.
suke ke tidak...kawan..nak buat ape..
next sem...sem 2..new sem..
lots of new things..new subjects...
maybe new people out there..
to my roomate..FRANKIE,AJIB N TOTO...
sem nie..jga bilik k..
hahaha..tak penting pun sebenarnya..sje nk memanjangkan rentetan pgi ak nie..
so..sedar2lah fiq oi..
gud luck to myself...myself..n myself...again..myself...
but...
but...
mse cuti2 nie ak da kenal kengkawan yg baru...akmal,safwan,..huh 2 je..
haha..best jugak..ak kn suke berkawan..
huh..ok la...
aneff dah tnya tue..hak2...time tulis nie chat2 ngn dy..
thanks k..
pape...daa...
caiyok2....gud luck...1 malaysia..huhu


p/s:actually..ak tak tau nk letak ape kat title tu...korang bce je la ek..suke ke tidak ke... thanks n btw..letak la ape2 ek..bg ak idea sikit...tq...

~tag tag tag tag~

deDIcAtED to AneFF...
p/s..:sorry neff,,bdna nie dh berkurun,ko suruh ak tag..skrg bru ak wat..
maaf ye,jap td teringt..haha
           next time ak wat awl..janji..huhu..neway thanks to you.stalker..
          


1. Besides your lips , where is the favorite spot to get kissed?
~how should i noe...pipi..haha
2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
~so tired..tdo lmbt gle...on9 jew                                               
3. Who was the last person / people you took a photo with?

~lupe..seyes lupe..

4. Would you consider yourself spoiled?

~tak..proud to be myself

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?

~ade la..spe ckp takleh...mamat nie buget curious..tnya boleh ke tak..huhu...ciput..hahaha..boleh la

7. Do you want someone to be dead?

~so far takde g..tapi..klo ade..ak gtau..

8. What does your last text message say ?

~my sister dpt top 5 dlm kelas..hapi..haha

9. What are you thinking right now ?

~my frens...
                                                                                             
10. Do you want someone to be with you right now ?

~nope..tak yah susah2..spe pun tak nak..haha                                                 

11. What was the time you went to bed last night ?

~believe me..5 a.m                                                               

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now ?

~giordano

13. Is someone on your mind right now ?

~erm..entahla...

14. Who was the last person who text you ?

~adela...haha

nite..salam.
again sory dude,
to others..bosan2 wat la bnda nie k,
for fun...

~berkisah tentang dia~

"ak bukan kesunyian,tapi merasakan kekosongan"
kata-kata temanku yang buntu membisu,
nak dihitung masa yang berganti,
nak di cari yang bukan fantasi,
nak digenggam takut terlepas,
nak bersabar,hancur berderai,
nak digalas,beban menggunung,
nak bersatu,hati tak jitu,
nak dicari,buntu membisu,
nak diluah,tak siapa tahu,
nak sesuatu,tapi terkedu,
itu lah kata2 yang menggambarkan tentang dia,
insan yang penuh tanda tanya,
insan yang penuh dengan cerita,
bukan tak kena,
tapi hilang entah kemana,
bukan jasad penentu kita,
hati di dalam,penuh derita,


teman,
ku dedikasi kan nukilan ini,
kerna terkenang deritamu,
kerna terbau resahmu,
kerna terkedu tangis menjenguk ruangmu,
ingatlah teman,
manusia semuanya lemah,
tidak akan ada yang bahagia sahaja,
masa derita,ujian dari-NYA,
jangan sekali kau ukir tanya,
menyalah bumi terapung diri,
menyalah diri hitam gelapnya,
usah kau kenag kisah yang lalu,
biarkan sahaja masa mencatu,
bukan kita,kuasa menentu,
berteguh suara,mencaci cita,
lemah bertaut membunuh tika,
ku pujuk dunia,tanya bersama,
mengapa teman,kau buntu menghina,
menyembah bumi,
pedih melara,


sudahla,
bangun semangat,
penuh daya,
ada menanti di hari tiba,
temanku bangun,
segeralah sedia,
menghunus senjata,mengenggam dunia...



biar jelas,nampak dimata,
hanya hati kenal siapa,
jangan malu,bertingkah sahaja,
ada hikmahnya,
kehadiran saudara,
buat pengajaran untuk sesiapa yang
hancur lemah di jiwa,
kau adalah inspirasi,




nukilan ikhlas buat temanku,meor mohd syafiq,
bersabarlah teman,bahagia menantimu,
carilah ia,

~the bomb~

aisywarya rai....
sekarang nie...bachan dah la...
sumpah best...
addicted gila tgok muka dy...
'miss world 1994' la katakan...
one of my favourite women artist..
best gila...
bnyk bnda dy dah buat,
nyanyi n mengacara...agak ku tak pasti...(tapi dy menari best)
filem dy yg ak minat...
1.hum hum dil chuke sanam
2.devdas
3.jodha akbar
4.n mcm 2 lg la...asal dy je sure layan....


one more thing...
she's my mom favourite's too...
mama ak cakap'aisy nie mata dy hijau,she got a pair of green eyes'
agak terpaku..(pe yg best??)huhu
cantik gila mata dy...
nie ada gmbar dy...
just want to share...haha...
take a look...sometime post bnda2 mcm nie best je mata memandang...various post,various feeling...





yg lg satu nie pun best jugak,
comel je...
suara bapak punye sedap(husky gila...serak2 basah,tapi bukan la ella)haha
rani mukhrejee..
huhu...
filem ape suma dy berlakon best....
spe cakap kecik2 tak leh da bakat kan...tol tak kaza(hahahahahha)kidin..
dah la lawa...
dy nie kiranya..jatuh no 2 la...
1st si ratu dunia tu...
best gila....
hindustan best....(tangkap leleh)huhuhu
wow...........best!~whoa~


2 bollywood artist stole my heart..
t cita g la pasal movie n artist yg laen..
gempak..
ni baru sikit...
~lalalalaallalalaalalaalala~

~one step at time~


feeling,
do i care about my ownself,
ya,you...i care about you,
deeply i do care about what you feel,
does it bother me,
im too blind to see,
im too shy to be,
im too mean as you said,
what should i do,
what should i say,
you are too big,
for me to catch...
yet,i do believe in faith...
till when..
sooner or later...
time had doubt with me,
if i stop,
it won't be along....
i'll be leaving you,
away...
so far away,
i speak to you....
hear me..
im saying out loud...
stay away from me,
ill be okay,ill be fine...
just go...........
as you be the greatest impication,
let me hell you back...
back off........
release me...


yours sincerly,

~yeay..tok dtg~hahahaha



yeay..
tok datang malam nie....haha..
agk2 stay smpai g melaka la kot..best ar...
msti bwak pape kt cucu2 dy mlm nie,..
rindunya...sori ar tok..
last few days tak dpt tdo umah..
i have muet on that day...
pape pun..
bilik dh kemas...buah-buahan dh g beli..
kiwi n apple...ur favourite..
thanks..
huhuhuhu...
mama...tgok2 tok ek..
almaklum la..my mom n dad g amik..
dy tak berapa sihat..huhu
haha..
both of them ratu di hatiku..
hapi..
hahahahaha..
lalala
p/s...that pic tue taken by me last year kot..lupe la..abaikn tempat,coz tak ingat..hahaha

~the bomb~

erm...
pape je la ak nak post kn..
agak bosan petang niey..
tv tkde ar rncgn menarik..
huh,
erm...aneff dh post dh pg td..
idea ak bru nk dtg skrg ni..
huh.
post psl ape ek..
ha???post psl si 3 org manusia nie la..
check it out(cm best la ek)
amyr de ckp"tak psot psl dy ka??huhu(dlm hati insyallah la)
nh,ak pst ko n other two ketot n keling..(just kidin)


nie la mereka2 ini..1st tue ak la kn..2nd is kaza,amyr n zamir,
actually dh lme nk post cume idea tak kuar...
tmbhn,1st pix yg ak edit...for my fren..
comot sna sini ar..(hahahahaa)
ak nak post ape ek??
ok ar..let us meet the 1st 0ne...

kaza??
a guy with a short hair for dis moment la kan,..suke makan, n pe je..
gud sense of fashion,minat bunkface..ade jaket zac efron(17 again)suke sgt on9,fb,ms,twitter..
texting pown ngn aweks dy la(21st october)hahaha..hapi dy dy skrg..hobi??tak pasti,rse2 enjoy music,band,humour show,men sudoku,haha.n de la lg ek...ha??dy suke roti canai pisang...amyr ckp pelik..tp sedap gak..hahaha..best2...tue je la rsenya..haha(takleh lebih2)

venue: time nie first kuar ngn si kaza,n mang,tasha n faith..mule2 ingt nak gunting rmbut ak la kn,tapi tak jdi la plak..huh,then..kmi g mkn..shopping baju padini,kaza n mang de beli..ak takde duit..(dyorg kaye ouuwww)mkn kt foodcourt dp je..kaza mkn meehoon tom yam,ak mkn nasi ngn tom yam,mang nsai goreng cina n faith nasi ayam..huhuhu..n ak order  kiwi mix fruit...sdp je..then,stay smpai la ke malam..g karaoke kt mp...then mkn sausage 1901..kaza ckp 1st time dy mkn,huh



cm nk cye ek???then mkn pe je,ha..auntie annie's pe ntah..sdp..dah tue..g konsert jelajah ERA...best de artist,haha tapi cian kat mamat sorg nie..tak dapat tgok bunkface..so,ak melalak la dlm kete time nk blik..cian ..lupe..biggest fan of big apple..kmi bli 6 ketol..huhu..thanks ye..then,balik..
beg waty kena cheezy wedges si faith..hahaha..
nie de sikit gmbo dyorg..










amyr??

a guy with a very manja one..haha(kidin,tp btol pown)again...he loves to eat..lapar je..ble suru mkn,tak nak..ble tak nak..mule la lapar dy tue..suke fashion jugk..cm kaza...one of the addicted to big apple(alien)suke sgt dy..then pe je..de cardigan wrna hijau..pastu suke music..nyanyi..men game trucks tue kt lappy dy..erm..lgu pe ek dy suke,ha mcm2 ar..agk universal...tapi cry by rihanna is one of the favourite song..huhu(cian dy,cry ja)..kemudian,disusli dgn ape ja?huhu..tue ka..peneman setia mr DRAGON..hahaha..rite??



venue: time nie kuan ngn amyr n kaza..kmi nek bus je..1st2,tertinggal dek kerana kecepatan kaza yg lembab,n kesopanan amyr yang tak kena tempat..ak jd org tengah..huh..yg tak leh blah,amyr la.buget si pkcik bus tu nk tggu dy ka??hahaha..but,pape kaza yg kna fire..tgggu la kmi dkt dpn UITM tue,agak best je time tue..sumpah suka(bahagia seketika)amyr dengan rmbutnya...n fon...kaza dgn bajunya n ika...erm...thanks guys..thank u...sesampainya kat alor gajah..g ar jap kt expo danny..tgok2 senior kesayangan kami tue..ya..(kaza n amyr syg sgt)hahaha..especially amyr,k-o..hahaha,then continue ar nek bas smpai MS...otw tue,amyr tdo je..agk letih ya...kaza..budget tgok awek cun dpn dy...hahahaha..tapi,jeng2...so..purpose kuar sesaje ja..nk cri brgn rumah kaza n keperluan peribadi...kmi mkn pe ek..amyr??ko mkn pe ek time nie....huhu..kmi melantak MCD,sizzling...claypot rice,then BIG apple...sorg 3 ketol...then..ak minum starbucks dgn dyorg..sedap..huhuhuuhuhu...

tgok r tue...hahahaha..abaikn muke ak ok..huahuahuahuaha...







zamir??

a guy with a figure of mr UNIVERSE,hahahaha..zamir???mkn suke la gak..
tapi takla addicted cm ak nie ha..hahahaha..dy suke mkn sizzling mee..
mee gorng MAMAK..hahaha..smpai kne marah la kn...coz,mee tu angin,tak elok sgt ngn peot dy..hahaha...tue je la..dy suke lepak...berbual...chit chat??
on9 boleh la..tak selalu...bnyk kat gim..n family..klau kt kasturi...
dgn adik dy je la..hahahaha(mmuahhh)...sme gak  ngn ak...
favourite artist kmi MARIAH CAREY..rite mir..hahaha...kapel???
erm..mir tau la je kn..single je lagi...









venue:mse nie kuar ngn zamir,aneff,syahmee,n mubin katne??kat ne je ek..hahahahaha...kmi g mkn sana sini..jln2...pusing2..time nie nek atos...sempoi ja..haha..fun,mkn pe ja...mee ada,nasi ada,buah ada...haha...then ak minum ice blended ngn aneff..syahmee minum cocktail..hahaha....sengal je bunyi...then,jln lg....smpai la mlm,pastu baru kami balik..time nie la jugak..si mubin bli jam casio..bpk kaya la membe2 ak nie..huhuhu...pape pun..its fun ok...nie pown de la sikit pix kmi..hahaha..yum2...tgok2 je k...coment2 pun bleh la..pix mkn2 bnyk dlm fon syahmee la...argh.....huhuhu...nie je la...n newy..dyorg try mkn sushi yg ak beli..cm pelik je muka...best pe kn...


pape pown..kaza,amyr,n zamir..
thanks guys coz hangout sesame...n to others as well tq..
kaza,amyr n zamir...love u guys..
thanks again...
hope next sem..kita kuar g ka...bnyk bnda nk cite nie..
hope u guys happy...
 p/s>>dedicated to amyr....huhu..ok kn???